K. J. Bagnall

Writer. Editor. Illustrator. Mental Health Activist. Christian.

June 1, 2017
by K. J. Bagnall

How Anxiety Can Look And Feel: Symptoms You May Not Know

Over the last few years, anxiety disorders have become more accepted, more understood. But so much and so many symptoms are yet unknown to the general public — even unknown to sufferers themselves.

Anxiety takes many different forms. The symptoms below aren’t an exhaustive list, but may offer an insight for those seeing anxiety from the outside, and those in the midst of its grip.

Symptoms To Look Out For

The following symptoms are noticeable to a bystander. Though often, if they can, an anxious person will try to hide their symptoms. But if you pay attention, you can pick them up and take steps to help them.

If after an hour the anxiety is not subsiding, give them something calming such as camomile, and get them to see a GP as soon as they can. (A note on camomile: hide the taste by mixing it with other non-caffeinated flavours such as lemongrass, lavender or peppermint.)

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May 1, 2017
by K. J. Bagnall

The God of Leviticus: He is Just

The God of Leviticus is a just God. What, exactly, do I mean by “just”? I mean He is a fair God. Able to be simultaneously compassionate and firm.

Most people cringe at the thought of dragging themselves through the boring, strange, outdated laws of Leviticus. I myself was uncertain.

But my trusty study bible suggested reading the book in conjunction with Psalms — studying both the sacrifice and ritual style of worship, and the singing and praise style we’re more familiar with nowadays. So I prepared to flick over as soon as Leviticus got too much for me. And then became so enwrapped in what Leviticus revealed, I read straight through.

I think it fortunate that my goal for reading through the bible is to discover more about who God is. Because that meant every law wasn’t some outdated tradition, some vague moral code; it was an insight into what is important to my God.

Equity And Equality

In setting the laws for Israel, God recognised the different circumstances people come from. And He allocated for those differences. He is a God who wants all to be able to come before Him.

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April 1, 2017
by K. J. Bagnall

How D&D Helps My Writer’s Block

I’ve struggled to write the last, well, year if I’m honest. But I’ve recently stumbled across an interesting way of getting myself back in the swing of things: the role-playing game D&D. My first ever game is in a few weeks, and the preparation has sparked something within me.

Stress has been a huge factor in my struggle to write. It saps my energy, my motivation and gives me constant headaches.

This blog is the only personal writing project I’ve kept on schedule for. I suppose there’s something to the illusion of accountability, even though I don’t even have a big readership and I doubt many notice my first-week-of-each-month posting schedule.

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March 4, 2017
by K. J. Bagnall

How To Respond To Someone Who Is Crying

People cry for a lot of reasons. Today I particularly want to talk about how to respond when someone is crying quietly due to stress, distress or feeling overwhelmed. This most often happens to those who suffer from anxiety, but can happen to anyone lacking of energy due to insomnia or a virus or anything.

So, I’m going to start with what led me to choose this topic, the option of responding or not responding to a crying person, then a step-by-step of how best to respond.

Photo by MarLeah Cole

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January 23, 2017
by K. J. Bagnall
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Be Careful What You Sacrifice (A Brief Preview: The God of Deuteronomy)

So, with my “God of” challenge where I’m reading through the whole bible start-to-finish, I’m currently reading Deuteronomy. And a verse in chapter 20 has me thinking, about being careful what you sacrifice — or not cutting down fruit trees.

I’m a bit behind on my posts about each book, only up to Exodus. I’m not being lazy, I’m just cycling each month between my three “bags”, so the topic only comes up once every three months.

But let’s get back to the point.

God’s Warning To The Israelites

Israel is on the cusp of entering its promised land. They see it on the horizon, waiting, shining. Throughout their long journey, God has given them many rules and requirements to live by. Now as their new life is about to dawn, He reminds them of these and adds a few things:

“When you besiege a city for a long time, while making war against it to take it, you shall not destroy its trees by wielding an ax against them; if you can eat of them, do not cut them down to use in the siege, for the tree of the field is man’s food.” — Deuteronomy 20:19


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January 10, 2017
by K. J. Bagnall

Recap and Release: Striding Into A New Year

Many say the turn of the new year is just an arbitrary date that doesn’t actually mean anything. This is true. However, it is healthy to regularly restock and release, in order to move forward. January is a convenient time to do so, as its association with “New Year Resolutions” helps us remember to take the time to reflect.

Another point to note is that this month marks my blog’s 1 year anniversary! Posting once a month doesn’t sound like much, but life can get busy and I was nervous about committing myself. And, man, did last year hit me hard. And yet I haven’t missed a post! Except for April. But we don’t talk about April 2016. It doesn’t count as a real month.

A Look Inside The Green Bag: Mental Health

In my little blog logo, the green bag holding a bunny represents mental health and family. A year ago, this blog started with my mum heading into hospital for TMS treatment. I worried I would struggle, as mum and I are very close, but it ended up a pretty smooth experience. This was a turning point, and a relief. I no longer had to dread her trips as much.

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December 5, 2016
by K. J. Bagnall

The God of Exodus: He is Forgiving

The God of Exodus is a forgiving God. This may startle many; I mean, I’m only up to the second book and the key take-away from it is God’s forgiveness? Doesn’t that become important later, when Jesus shows up?

Forgiveness is central to God’s grace through Jesus, but it has been a foundation of His personality from the beginning.

You’re probably familiar with the first half of Exodus, when God used Moses to rescue Israel from Egyptian slavery. You’ve likely heard the story of Moses bringing the Ten Commandments down from Mount Sinai, and then the whole deal with the golden calf. So where does forgiving fit into all this?

God Redeems A Faithless Israel

When Moses first talked to Pharaoh, things became worse for Israel. Understandably, they were upset and rejected Moses, whom God sent.

So Moses spoke thus to the children of Israel; but they did not heed Moses, because of anguish of spirit and cruel bondage. — Exodus 6:9

So God waited around for them to show a little faith, right? Nope. For some reason Christians often believe that we must have faith in God for Him to rescue us. And while He appreciates it, and it makes the process easier for us, isn’t not a necessity.


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Not only did God save a faithless Israel, He did it spectacularly. That sounds like a forgiving God to me.
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November 1, 2016
by K. J. Bagnall

Three Common and Unexpected Grammar Mistakes To Look Out For

Anyone who’s seriously looked into English grammar, even just a little bit, knows it’s a bizarre creature. And the more you study it, the less confident you feel about using it correctly. Or maybe there’s a magical point where it all makes sense, which I just haven’t reached yet.

Today I’m going to share three grammar rules and scenarios that surprised me when I first learnt them, and always keep me on my toes. Well, there are certainly a lot more than three that do this, but we’ll keep it nice and simple for this post!


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Warning: grammar terms are used in this article. I explain some of the less-familiar ones, but be sure to follow links or do your own research for more definitions.

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October 1, 2016
by K. J. Bagnall

The Colours Of Trust: Can I Trust You?

I’ve been thinking about trust lately. 2016 has been a hectic year where several things and people I trusted to remain consistent changed. And like many, change does not come easily to me.

Trust doesn’t come easily to me. And yet, I do it like breathing. But I’m talking about two different types of trust here. Wait, there’s more than one? Well, maybe I just have an overcomplicated way of viewing the world. I wouldn’t be surprised. But, you be the judge.

What is it anyway?

Is trust some mushy, lovely heart-warming concept? Sure, we use the word to have that meaning. And this is the meaning I struggle to enact in my life. Actually let me guard down and trust someone else? Whoa, tried that before.

Okay, actually that’s usually gone alright. But I’ve let my guard down by accident a few times and had people come in and made a big mess. And since I wasn’t bracing myself for the rejection, it cut deep. And now when I want to choose to let my guard down, it rubs against the scars.


But trust also means faith in the reality we understand and choose to believe. With me still? Though a bit complicated at first glance, this is the one I find easy.

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September 3, 2016
by K. J. Bagnall
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The God of Genesis: He is Committed

Genesis is a long book, full of stories, people, trials and triumphs. I’ll be skipping over a lot, so I encourage you to read through it yourself.

The purpose of “The God of” Challenge is to find more facets of His being and personality. Reading through Genesis, I noticed this about God: He is committed.

By committed, I mean He’s in it for the long run — whatever it takes to save humankind. And how do I know this? Read on!

Original Sin

One rule. Just one little rule. Don’t eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. The first humans, Adam and Eve, were going great until the snake suggested the fruit would make them like God. Their desire to be god was a great betrayal, implying that the true God wasn’t doing a good enough job.

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Despite being wronged so, as God casts them out He gives a promise. While on that day the snake succeeded, a human would take the ultimate victory. From the very start, God had his eyes facing forward, into the future.

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